it feels like the night when you get home from camp.
we went to the airport yesterday to drop my sister off. she is going to new zealand for five months and will be back here in san juan in june. i know that she is going to have an amazing time, but i have always had a sister and i’m not sure what i am going to do all day without one. but that is what exchange is about—change.
once we got home, i sat on my bed. the house felt so empty. just like that day when you get back from camp and are no longer surrounded by people everyday, when suddenly you are the only person in your room and you’re not quite sure what to so with yourself or your time, so you call someone but you don’t actually feel like doing anything so than a little while later you send them a text and say “actually, i’m too tired, let’s hang out later.” and this is what my life has come too. sure it has only been one full day without her and technically she is still in the sky flying to auckland, but there is just too much space surrounding me.
i start my classes at the university on wednesday, i’m glad i wont have too much more free time on my hands. i still don’t quite understand what i have to do the first day, but i’ll figure that out when i get there.
my life feels like a standstill right now. the kids that were here for a semester or the other year (feb-jan) just went home, my sister left, and i am still in summer break searching for things to fill my time.
i just went to chile which was unbelievably beautiful, chile has something special that argentina lacks. in chile there is more soul, more character, more presence.
but once i start the university i am going to start doing things. it is weird, i played lacrosse for two years but i was never really that serious about it, but now i find myself missing the structure of a sport. i think that i am going to start field hockey in the fall (the spring in the north). i am for sure taking a yoga class, a photography class with a friend from here and i really want to do folklore.
usually i talk a lot, and do nothing. maybe because i am in argentina it will be different. but i will probably just take my classes for school and drink a lot of cafe con leche and call it a life. and it is a life, and maybe it is the life that i want.
